now




last updated: 25 october 2023

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I’m doing a lot at once, while keeping my sense of time long, expansive, and slow. I see my work now as accumulations for a far longer project — that is, the project of living a full life.

I'm taking classes across various interests, such as Odissi dance, Korean language, and counselling psychology. I'm working on monthly missives for slow species, my Substack newsletter, as well as poems for my second book. All in all, I’m lying low and using this time to learn by doing.

I feel grounded in two questions Maggie Rogers posed to herself, namely:

How do I keep the things sacred in my life really safe?
How do I reconstruct every aspect of my life and my career to keep those things at the centre?

sacred things

  • thinking clearly & feeling deeply
  • the unknown territories of my thinking
  • my peace, wisdom, and intuition
  • my most exciting and resonant questions
  • relationships built on mutual curiosity, respect, affection, and freedom
  • the ability to recognise what actually matters
  • the ability to pay attention to the things that matter

things I'm saying yes to

  • solitude
  • saying less, observing more
  • sitting with my thinking and challenging my assumptions
  • meeting new people, especially people outside my usual circles and comfort zone
  • time to think quietly w/ minimal external influence & interference
  • simpler thinking patterns to minimise overthinking and free up mental energy
  • honing outward-facing skills such as public speaking and hosting strangers
  • learning from the principles and processes of independent thinkers

things I'm saying no to

  • too much introspection (narcissism & escapism)
  • being agreeable out of the fear of being disliked
  • projects and commitments where I'm in charge of other people or finances
  • last minute commitments, especially ones where my personhood is undervalued